the fridge groans
a tumbling washer.
taking these steps
to come closer to myself.
from shrink to expand
power in powder
heart and art in earth
learning to hear so that
i may speak
learning to feel
to touch.
from planning to i am
internally homeless to
eternal belonging.
pulling back
the pieces of myself
which were shattered
by lies.
from good/bad to healthy/unhealthy
from fight to flow
flying jellyfish
track of time. time track
the train has a soothing
scream to it.
from feeling burdened by the world,
the world now holds me.
blue dragon flies
delicate wings
trying to control
shakes me sore and nervous.
learning to direct these emotions
so that they may serve me.
volcanic anger
pedals me up a
steep hill.
internal eruption
ash of afraid to aid.
singing my
own song now
aureate.
suppression of one emotion
surfaces another
from expire to express.
processing to
see clearly
this fury.
my own doctor
and medicine.
these emotions once
tired me
now rebooting my system.
water blurs the edges
touched by your eyes.
these ropes of tension
release their grip on me.
space dust
rocketing
i am an experience
breathing and living
is important to me.
anxiety
shoving you away
only tightens your hold on me
freezing and compressing.
you knock when
my sense of responsibility
is heightened
shortening my breath
you are concerned
about my health.
anger external and fiery
i want to be
continuously cracked
evanescent
sure in insurance.
ear in clear
rest in resist
this urgent storm
requires action.
no more or less than Alaya.
i acknowledge myself now.
blackberry bush
speaking with these thorns
catching my sleeves
when i try to pick where
i am not welcome.
discerning what is mine
and what is not.
rock bottom
screaming with full lungs
as the train rolls by.
i allow myself to break down
not being ok is ok.
bonanza
urgency in rewiring
so that my current can flow.
seeing this through. seeing through this.